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Fathers grave

Don't feel like getting into it right now, but me and my father had a bad relationship. I don't hold anything against him and lately have been deciding if I want to visit him at his gravesite. I reason that someone needs to keep the place up, but I'm sure he gets some visitors. He died of hypertension. When he was with my mom she made him take his blood pressure meds, but apparently when he got with his new wife she was hell on wheels, and didn't care about his meds or not. The last time I seen him he looked bad, he was almost pitiful, he was actually nice. I gave him some new underwear and some socks. The kind that come in multi packs.That was probably 16 years ago, he died a little later. It would come out that he was on crack. which was disturbing because he didn't do drugs. I just remember he gave me his car the last time we talked lol. I couldn't drive at 12 though.


Oh yeah his wife moved a new guy into the home 2 weeks after he died.

Friends who needs them

Why is it everyone I know expects more out of me than they do themselves? It's like people always expect me to go out of my way, because I'm loyal and have a moral code.. If someone calls me and says hey my pipes have busted can you help me, I'm going over there and will work till the problems fixed. I've done a lot of work for people I know, things that would have costed them hundreds to get done. But it's hurtful when I don't see them going out of their way to be the same, not just to me, but with each other. When did everything become everybody tries to use everyone else? I remember I decided to say the hell with it I'm not helping no one else. these people suck, but someone would always call with a bad problem and if I can help it's very hard for me to say no. My mom is always like "God gave you the heart you have" saying you have a soft heart when it comes to trying to help.

Unfortunately a soft heart bleeds easily. It's kinda depressing really.

Those personal meeting Ads

I joined one of those services basically for curiosity purposes and now I'm getting emailed pics of "available women in my area" Ah crap! for every fall on the floor rip your clothes off babe there are ten women that look like they just came from death row. Seriously, I bet if you emailed them they'd be inmates wanting you to visit them. The closest I like to get to Jail is watching Green Mile or Shawshank. I may come off like I'm all about looks, but thats not true. I 've liked ugly girls, real ugly. Not even skin ugly, but attitude ugly. I really hate the way some women act. You're miss gods gift to the earth, you are going to end up old and alone sucking more than you do now. Not that I've ever really been turned down. I just hate when you think someone is cool and they end up really being a nasty person. Then they give that excuse "Guys don't approach me because I intimidate them" No...It's because most guys own pets and don't need another bitch!

Michael Jackson and Bahrain

Reports saying he bought a home there. I hope maybe now the guy can get some peace and quiet if this is true. 14 acres! Thats enough land for him to regain ownership of Bubbles and let him go around beating up people like the Arvisos who try to enter the property, Hmm How the hell does a broke guy with no money buy 14 acres and a luxury home? Could it be he had extra cash in off shore accounts, but wait!!! he's susposed to be too crazy to pull something like this off. People are going to have to wait and see. I just hope he comes out with some new stuff thats off the wall. Janets gained a little weight there:) speaking of the Jacksons. she looks alright with weight though, she might be depressed, after all can you imagine seeing Jermaine Dupris face in the morning?!!! Not dissing the guy, It's just I've seen pretty faces turn rough in the morning. My face in the morning? It always looks like I got punched a few times by a leprechaun. Okay a little water and It gets back to itself.

The Gingerbread man

What the hell? The story is insane, like I think I keep getting the stories mixed up! Why the hell would he decide to cross the river on the crocodiles back? And then there's the other one where the fox dismantles him. Grr, which reminds me it was cool how my mom use to read to me and my siblings. Henny Penny and the sky is falling. She had this freaking huge book and would read to us before we went to bed.pretty cool. AH HA we had the 3 little pigs and Stone soup record, awesome stuff.

Truck driving school

I'm considering a career in truck driving. I hear it's where the money is? I figure it will give me a chance to see more than Illinois and Chicago. I can totally see me driving to places like Miami and California. I wonder if I could take the lonely long hours on the road. I'd have to get me about 3 new CDs before every trip. I think that'd help. I already been recruiting the peeps I know asking them if they'd travel with me, most say yeah they'd love to go...Now you know when the time comes nobody will want to go. Anyway I have about a week to decide.

Hair

My hair is growing long again. I can't decide if I should hack it off or keep it, go for that rock star look! Nah I think I look more respectable with short hair. I'm having problems sleeping again. I hope I don't end up going to the hospital again for this. I think it's just that I'm working on so much stuff right now, so many projects at once. My plan is to get rich, not because of a love of money, but I want to do nice things for the people I care about. I want to give to good causes i want to help people.. I thank God and Jesus for the people out there doing the work I should be doing.

Horror

I love horror movies, it's my favorite genre. Not really the cheap slasher flicks, but more the supernatural ghost, demon and vampire type stuff. Jason and Freddy and Mike are among my favorites though. I guess with horror it allows me to escape from reality and take in a whole other universe. I guess everyone feels like thiis, but with watching horror I don't have to worry about the real horrors of paying bills, the war in Iraq etc.

My first article

Hi to anyone who reads this I've basically gone insane and have decided to put my daily thoughts in this blog. I had generic Capn Crunch today. haha well it was good atleast. Yeah thinking of things to talk about here, trying to catch a vibe. okay here's something. I had an awesome dream yesterday.. I was playing American Football and my team won. I think whats at the core of this dream is I always wanted to be a football player. Anyway I'm a 27 year old guy. I have good skin. That was susposed to be funny. Okay but my skin is nice enough. I have nice eyes and a great smile, haha well I've been told it's great. My greatest asset? Hmmm my lips. Highly kissable, okay nobodys actually told me that, but kissing myself in the bathroom mirror is exciting. It's practice, not mirror incest. I'm going to post some sort of pic . I don't think I'll share anything else today. This hopefully is enough to make a few ladys stalk me..Please stalk me. I wont report you to the police.